How I will escape where I was
Being a writer sometimes gives me a burden. Lots of questions come out of my mind and roar intensely: "How can I write a perfect novel? How can I convey my ideas to readers in a right way? How can I have new ideas that make others feel curious?" So I sit for a long day, looking at the laptop screen and feel powerless. From time to time, I want to relax my mind by doing nothing but looking vaguely and thinking worthless things.
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I don't escape for my whole life, just for a while to arrange the stuff in my head... |
When I said that I was writing a book, surely there were many people suspecting my ability because I was not a perfect one in the place I was working for. What's more, announcing you are doing something great at this age seems to be a joke; therefore, I think lots of people, even the ones I respect like my friends never give me comments or any advice. I always welcome creative ideas though the world thinks that it is not real or over-thought. Perhaps it is the reason why I wouldn't love to release my own world of thoughts to people who don't welcome them. They seem to stick with the old-fashioned conceptions which are mainstream. I desire to look for a private world where there are only me and strange people. I will disappear for a while.
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How can I fly high when there are so many obstacles around? |
The introverts like me never feel lonely when they sit alone, go out alone or do something by their own. Sometimes I don't feel like doing the jobs anyone tells me to do, I avoid being found, being called, being bothered, being interrupted and being taken responsibilities for the things I don't pour my heart into this. So, I want to escape, I want to live my own life with the things I harbour for my whole life: design a book I love. You can help me by not interrupting me.
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I want to re-define myself |
People are always complicated: their thoughts, their lifestyle, their ideas, their love. Never easy to attain their psychology and never able to quickly run into their own life. Being a writer, you must put you into their shoes to figure out the size they need, the situation they are in. Although I never feel bored with my ideas and never tired of writing them down, I become overwhelmed occasionally. Now, I am in this situation when my ideas are getting stuck. It sucks !
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How come can you understand that ? |
If only I could ignore the world I am in to disappear for a while. At the moment, I desire to refuse all the jobs from my club, all the projects from the company I am working for. I want to travel, to discover the people, to look at the crowd, the single person like Sherlock Holmes - the most well-known detective I have ever known. I don't feel excited with facebook, all the social networks I logged in. I don't want to dive into this world of silly stuff, I would prefer to explore the lively places outside instead. The social network wastes my life, wastes my young age as well.
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Now, it is my turn. |
Who will sympathize for my stories. I don't want to belong to anywhere, I want to belong to the place I am creating. Sometimes "gap year" jumps out of my mind and conquers me for a long time: "It is time for you to do what you love. Going somewhere else. Love one person. No, love is not a good choice because It can tie you with a fixed pillar. You can explore the tribe in the Africa, feel brave to live there without thinking about terrorism. Moving to another country, taste a strange food from the Indian people, write a book about the special people you meet as you wished to." Life is awesome when I imagine.
My world is
a big universe
where I look for
a goal to aim at.
My world is
a big universe
where I look for
a goal to aim at.
Now, you can do it. People can say you are so irresponsible but you will change, Trang. You should now give you a chance, to live your own life, not others'. You fly with the wings you have, you write your life book.
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I wish I have my own paradise like that |
Why not now?
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